I truly dislike the word FAKE- especially when it is used as an adjective. Even more so when it is an adjective applied to me!
I am an extremely transparent person. I am not one to lie, as a matter of fact, I’m not very good at it! If anything, one of my biggest flaws in this area is that I sometimes do not think about how to temper the truth in love. I screw up in life, I know it and admit it. When I screw up, I take my lumps. Sometimes it is not comfortable – heck, MOST times it’s not comfortable, but I still take them. (The lumps, that is)
And now, because someone who knows me well enough to know that something they heard is not consistent with what they’ve seen and experienced with me……. I’ve been labeled a FAKE. It isn’t because they necessarily see me as a fake. It may be because the person who told them the lies is someone they know also. In this case even longer – and more intimately – than they’ve known me. They reacted unkindly to the lies. They engaged their mouth before engaging their thought process – and not only did they say things, but they put it in writing! It really hurt me – and still does to some extent. That’s why I need to go through this process to “get it”!!
Although this situation hurts, I have been praying that God will bring my heart to forgiveness. I have forgiven the person who did the lying. But that was easy, because they came to me and asked for forgiveness. It’s always easier to forgive someone who asks for it! The one calling me a fake? Well based on past experience [with them], I realize they may not come to ask forgiveness, short of divine intervention. That, however, is not the point. Continue reading